The Void Blends in Your Hands by Carmen Lucía Alvarado

Utopia Science Fiction Magazine
2 min readSep 21, 2022

Translated by Toshiya Kamei
February 2020| Utopia Science Fiction Magazine

*Poem Nominated for a Rhysing Award 2021*

feel it

stop being nothing to turn into stone

bang your skull against the void

bang it again and again

remove broken bones

stick your hand in the hole in your skull

feel the moisture of your reason stuck to your fingers

take out your gray wet brain

a piece of raw, dead matter

with some mollusk and a lot of mystery

gaze at the beauty

caught in its slots

take it in your arms

like an unborn child

press it against your chest

lull it

wash it with the empowered cry that you walk between

sing to it

sing the beauty you wanted to name through it

tell it about the unlikely futures of the sublime

about infinite chasms and mysteries of silence

about poems that outline the dreams of the sleeping gods

On his knees the astronaut poet invents mythologies

to sleep with his dead brain in his arms

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El vacío se conjuga entre tus manos

siéntelo

deja de ser nada para convertirse en piedra

golpea al vacío contra tu cráneo

golpéalo una y otra vez

retira los huesos rotos

introduce tu mano entre el agujero de tu cráneo

siente la humedad de tu razón adherirse a tus dedos

saca tu cerebro gris y húmedo

trozo de materia cruda y muerta

con algo de molusco y mucho de misterio

contempla la belleza

atrapada entre sus ranuras

tómalo entre tus brazos

como a un hijo nonato

apriétalo contra tu pecho

arrúllalo

lávalo con el llanto empozado entre el que caminas

cántale

cántale la belleza que quisiste nombrar a través de él

cuéntale de los futuros improbables de lo sublime

de los abismos infinitos y misterios del silencio

de los poemas que esbozan los sueños de los dioses dormidos

De rodillas el poeta astronauta inventa mitologías

para dormir con su cerebro muerto entre los brazos​

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Originally published in the February 2020 issue of Utopia Science Fiction Magazine

About the Author:
Carmen Lucía Alvarado is a poet and editor based in Guatemala City. She is the author of the poetry collections Imagen y semejanza (2010), Poetas astronautas (2012), and Edad geológica del miedo (2018). She is currently working on her fourth poetry collection Pangea Muerte. Translations of her poems have appeared in venues such as Abyss & Apex, BFS Horizons, Samovar, and Star*Line.

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